clear

i miss the togetherness with my besties

we could talk non stop. i miss them. its been long long time, i am not myself

sometime i just cant see what makes me outstanding

i do repeatedly think about this

and what i wanted to do now is, find them and list them out..............

thank you

you say it best when you say nothing at all

its amazing how you can speak right to my heart

without saying a word you can light up the dark.....

i recalled when we walked aside all the way to car park

i remembered when we could sit at a corner talking and laughing so loud as if no one could hear us

touch of your hand says you catch me whenever i fall

we were always together supporting each other without letting each to fall

i believe that you were not letting me to fall, i believe that...

its happy when recalling the past because that were just so fabulous

its sad too when mentioning the past because we are going to separate, so soon.. we won't be hanging out like what we did anymore....

too many happened... 

i shall appreciate them....  


and do not remember the sadness... 

last good night

before i lied on my bed

before i closed my eyes

before i turned in

i would like to wish you a last good night

good night there... 

ambition

yes, i have ambitions, they are not clear for the time being

but no doubt i want myself to at least achieve something in few years time

i do not want to waste time in struggling myself to things that i cant even see the future

some people are hinting me, intentionally, so that i could prioritize things

yes, i have ambitions

we need to only deal with things that may bring us bright future

not those that would make us to fall or fail...

fly me :)

stupid

i should be the one leading

but now?

i am lacking a lot behind

i am scared

i am trembling

and i even do not want to face the truth

i wan to even run away

from my project

i am doubting that whether i could handle it or not

it is not hard

but i always hold myself back

i do not dare to proceed on it

i am stupid

i am cowardice

but, i promise, in four days time, i would work it till the end

good work:)

they may forget what you say, but they will never forget what you have made them feel

the passion, the hard work, the enthusiasm, and the effort are perceived.

i feel you because you made it fantastically... :)

back off? No way

that is me and that is always me

:(

一点都不好
为什麽不能向你问好?
我没错
为什麽不能...?

want to

i want to let myself go too

sometimes when we touch

Sometimes When We Touch

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

faithful

When I can't feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear you, I know you still hear every word I pray
And I want you more than I want to live another day
And as I wait for you, maybe I'm made more faithful

...

i wanted to wrack you!!!

cousin's sis wedding

its her wonderful wedding <3

its my dreamed wedding  <3

retrieved from Adrian & Rachel's wedding photos

school

yesterday, i had a great chat with serene
she was cleaning her car when i came back from dinner

we talked about our studies.

and we agreed so much that local university's educational system really pissed us off

we missed our primary and secondary school life even more

at least we got satisfaction after finished up piles of homework

at least we proved the mathematics equation

at least we knew what was it all about in physics

at least we had fun learning biology

at least we were gratified to balance out those chemistry equations

but now? what were we doing?

we were just dealing with all those s*** that couldn't even guarantee our future

what kind of research that we had done?

nope, we only touched on the surface and that was all

what made us to feel proud of what we were undertaking?

i am sorry, that was a no for my answer

what was so great to be a degree holder?

or we just wanted to complete our must-be-completed 19 years of educational life?

duh.....

yea i believed that education is not received but achieved. but please just study on our local university's system....

duh..... [again] think of it.... duh.... [again and again]

and

i was a bit kind of regret entering here...

if i were given a second choice, i would be probably leaving

some circumstances changed me or perhaps us

from a young freshman possessed with strong enthusiasm of learning

to someone that really lost passion on studies

i felt uneasy with all these....

不懂

你认为你很聪明吗?
你认为你很懂吗?

你认为你很了解吗?

不.....

你累了...

你不聪明了...

你不懂了...

你不了解了...
对不起...